Al looked down and nodded his head, "You did, an offer I can never take because I can never share the man I love with someone else, not in that respect. It would be like me asking you to allow me to be with Eothian also." But the difference was, Albert didn't want Eothian, not in the way Fia wanted Selene.
"You love me, you want her. You can't have us both, at least not in the world I was brought up in. I'm sorry but that wont ever change." He rubbed his eyes as his lower lip started to shake, "I would love for that to be possible, but there are too many wedges in our lives to stop that from happening and we both know that these wedges will just rip us apart. Bella doesn't deserve that."
Albert couldn't help but feel things would be different if Selene had never been in Fia's life. The meal at Christmas wouldn't have ended up with them fighting as Fia wouldn't have had plans with someone else on New Year, it wouldn't have resulted in Al spending it alone and Fia being with a woman he was attracted too... it wouldn't have ended in divorce and every fight that came after. Because every fight revolved around her and her relationship with Fia. The day they'd almost gotten back together, that had been going well until he admitted the affair and wanting them both. Al's heart couldn't live with Fia being with her as well as him.
"I know." He hid his face in his hands as silent tears ran from his eyes. They'd have to face the harsh reality soon and Albert was scared of what it might do to him.
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"You love me, you want her. You can't have us both, at least not in the world I was brought up in. I'm sorry but that wont ever change." He rubbed his eyes as his lower lip started to shake, "I would love for that to be possible, but there are too many wedges in our lives to stop that from happening and we both know that these wedges will just rip us apart. Bella doesn't deserve that."
Albert couldn't help but feel things would be different if Selene had never been in Fia's life. The meal at Christmas wouldn't have ended up with them fighting as Fia wouldn't have had plans with someone else on New Year, it wouldn't have resulted in Al spending it alone and Fia being with a woman he was attracted too... it wouldn't have ended in divorce and every fight that came after. Because every fight revolved around her and her relationship with Fia. The day they'd almost gotten back together, that had been going well until he admitted the affair and wanting them both. Al's heart couldn't live with Fia being with her as well as him.
"I know." He hid his face in his hands as silent tears ran from his eyes. They'd have to face the harsh reality soon and Albert was scared of what it might do to him.