Rp- Add on thread to Bella's release

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Albert wasn't aware of much because he had Bella in his arms and she was still babbling away about this and that, mindless stuff which all seemed so important. He couldn't believe how much she'd grown in this short space of time and she say so much more now. A minute or two later she was wiggling in her arms to get down and Albert carefully lowered her to the ground, and holding Moo in one hand, Bella took hold of Albert's with her other and started to tug him towards Mac.

"Move," she said, tugging at his hand and grinning as he started to walk. Soon they were by Mac and Bella reached to put Moo in Albert's pocket before reaching up to take both Al and Mac by the hand. "Sleepy," she said softly, yawning, "Moo's sleep too.. bedtime!"

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He climbed out of the bath and stood there, not drying himself off, "How is you having sex with Selene and me being faithful to me? Tell me how I'm supposed to be okay with you going to her's and sleeping with her and then coming back home to us. Tell me Fia, tell me because I don't understand how I am supposed to do that."

He took a step towards the other man, "If I have a life with you, you'd never let me have sex with someone else - not that I want too. It hurts knowing that you're asking me to be okay with you living with Bella and I ask a family and fucking Selene at the same time."

"And what's wrong with doing boring things? I'm not asking you to give up your job or stop running off to fight these battles you fight, I'm just asking you not to sleep with Selene any more. Everything else I can deal with, just not that." Not drying himself, Albert went and grabbed the clothes he had been wearing and started tugging them on, looking at the rumpled bed they'd made love in moments ago. "I can't live with my lover being someone elses lover too. And if you can't understand why then there is no point continuing this conversation and when we leave here we can go our separate ways."

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Mac turned to face Al.

“How? We’re divorced. Is that not enough? What about your suicide attempt, you died; you got your wish to release me of our marriage bonds --- with your death. Right now I am in no way been unfaithful to you, we are not even together.”

As he dressed Mac spoke, his voice tight and clipped.

“I’m not fucking Selene any more than I am fucking you. You throw this around like its something meaningless, and maybe that is why you can’t have it in our lives. Christ, Al, she loves me. I can’t even tell her I love her because I love you. You have everything she wants, the child. The house. The husband. Me. And she’s ready to lower herself so I can have you if she can still share me with you. You’re threatened by that?”

By the time he finished he had to lower his voice. He didn’t want to yell. Wake Bella. Or hurt Al with a raised voice.

“You can’t live without me either. We’ll both be a fucking mess if you make me stay away.”

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There was a pause as Al listened to him and then he turned to face Fia.

"Yes I am threatened by that. Of course I'm threatened by that. How can I not be!" He ran a hand through his hair messing it up again, walking back towards Fia, "How can I not be threatened by the fact that you want to be with her while with me?"

Taking a breath he looked into Fia's eyes and frowned deeply, "What? I'm not talking about what happened with you two, fuck, we weren't together when that happened, that i can deal with. But if you and I get back together, if we live together, have a relationship, bring Bella up as her fathers together.. you can't honestly ask me to allow you to be with her too."

"How, how is she lowering herself so she can be with you? Instead of being your girlfriend she's someone who get's to have sex with you and then you come home? I don't understand."

"Yeah, I'm a mess without you, I can't live without you. But I can't live with you and watch you be with her at the same time."

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Mac threw his hands up in the air. Standing bare foot, in trousers only, he held a look of disbelief on his features.

“Al. Baby. God damn it. How many times do we have to have this conversation? Go over it again and again? Did my making love to you before make a difference to you, knowing how I feel about Selene? No. We love each other, why in gods name can’t that be enough?”

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"Because it can't be. Why can't you understand?" He moved closer to him, his eyes looking deeply into Fia's. "Do you really want to go and have sex with her when you're living in our house with Bella and I? Is that really what you want? Is that what you want our relationship to be?"

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Mac held Al’s gaze, not wavering from the look.

“She isn’t just about sex, Al. I need to know she is alright. Need to remind her once in a while, she and I, have to be with someone else --- who ---,”

He trailed off and then decided not to edit himself, “---Who understands that the world isn’t just made up of suburban houses. Picket fences. Laundry neatly folded up in a corner. Cooked dinners. Nine to five jobs. And daughters ballet recitals. Or married couples needs.”

Mac didn’t know if Al really could ever understand. “I need her like that. In the same way I need you to remind me the world is, as well, made up of suburban houses and everything else, I can’t have when I get drawn into darker things I can’t escape from.”

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And Albert's answer to what he said?

His hands moved together and Albert slipped off his wedding ring and placed it in Fia's hand. "Then I am not and never will be the man for you, because I will never willingly share the man I love with someone else, not in the respect of him living two loves and having two relationships."

"When you're with someone you share the good things and the bad things with them, but you never wanted to share the darker things with me. Give her everything she wants. I just hope being with her was worth losing me over. Because this me saying that I will never have any of that with you if you're with her too."

And with that he headed out of the bathing room and out if Fia's quarters. He'd need to find somewhere to sleep. Somewhere away from all this madness and the end of his relationship with Fia.

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Mac didn’t say anything he let Al leave. Looking down at the ring, he took his own rings off, the gold and the black one Al had given him and placed them in a dish. He said once, he wouldn’t choose between Al and Selene, he’d stick by that decision.

It’d be business as usual. For now there was only one thing that really mattered. Leaving the bathroom, while pulling on a shirt, Mac found himself a chair pulling it up near the bed where Bella slept. He covered her with the blankets he had kicked off, then smoothed his hand across her forehead. After that he remained in the chair, every now and then he’d doze off but his full attention was on Bella.

Come morning, they’d have to take her before the court royalty and she would have to want to go home. Al might say he’d stay, but Mac would say he wouldn’t stay. All this time Bella had been with Mac, he knew she’d go home to be with grandma and grandpa to bring the other two home together. Those things were a certainty.

It made up for everything else not being a certainty.

(ooc: FTB?)

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(ooc: FTB sounds good)