And I love your brother. [he laughed darkly] I wish he were here to see this, he never believed I loved him because of who he is and not because of you.
Look at the state of me, I can't work properly without him, I'm just a fucking mess, and then you turn up and everything goes to hell.
I've decided that, when all this is over, Bella should be with my sister and Solomon. They can protect her and it's obvious how much Brea loves her. And I'm leaving for good.
Jesus. Al. When did this ever become important to you? You were fun once, now you’re all about daddies and babies? Because of Fia? Are you shitting me for real?! He’s me, baby, that’s why it isn’t working; he’s always been the me you wanted. But there you are still moaning over him, when that woman who wants him said he made his decision and didn’t take either of you.
C’mon. Love? That’s love to you? Holy shite, can’t you get it, you. Don’t. love. Fia.
I don’t care about this baby, where ever she came from, she isn’t yours. She isn’t blood. I am. And I love you. Al, you have to give us a chance, don't leave me.
And that is why you and I will never be anything but those few months that you stung me along to entertain yourself. Bella might not be blood but I love her like she is, just in the same way any person loves another who isn't blood. By your definition mother and father shouldn't love because they're not blood.
[He moved closer]
You don't love me, you never did. I was just a toy to you, one you would drop the moment someone better came along. It's the only reason things were the way between us for so long, because nothing could happen. If we'd ever taken the next step you would have grow bored and left me. I don't want you, and the only way I might need you is as my friend, but nothing more.
I think I know my own heart and you're as bad as he is, and for the record, you're not the same person. You gave me attention and made me feel wanted, he gave me love and made me feel safe. I wanted a family with him, a house, a dog, that's the kind of man I am.
That’s not what I meant. She isn’t as important as I ever will be and you can’t leave me.
You’ve always wanted attention; Al. Fia making you feel all those sappy feelings is just another form of attention. You just messed it up because you wanted some how to make him different so you couldn’t think it was me you wanted.
*Pulls Al into his arms.* This is the kind of man you are. *Claims Al’s mouth in a needed kiss.*
You can't keep rejecting me, Al. You want this as much as I do.
How am I supposed to know who you are if I have to stay away. I'm not leaving, baby. I wanted to be with you all this time and nothing is going to take me away from you. Not even Fia.
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Date: 2012-02-16 02:50 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2012-02-16 09:22 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-02-16 09:27 am (UTC)Look at the state of me, I can't work properly without him, I'm just a fucking mess, and then you turn up and everything goes to hell.
I've decided that, when all this is over, Bella should be with my sister and Solomon. They can protect her and it's obvious how much Brea loves her. And I'm leaving for good.
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Date: 2012-02-16 09:44 am (UTC)C’mon. Love? That’s love to you? Holy shite, can’t you get it, you. Don’t. love. Fia.
I don’t care about this baby, where ever she came from, she isn’t yours. She isn’t blood. I am. And I love you. Al, you have to give us a chance, don't leave me.
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Date: 2012-02-16 09:52 am (UTC)And that is why you and I will never be anything but those few months that you stung me along to entertain yourself. Bella might not be blood but I love her like she is, just in the same way any person loves another who isn't blood. By your definition mother and father shouldn't love because they're not blood.
[He moved closer]
You don't love me, you never did. I was just a toy to you, one you would drop the moment someone better came along. It's the only reason things were the way between us for so long, because nothing could happen. If we'd ever taken the next step you would have grow bored and left me. I don't want you, and the only way I might need you is as my friend, but nothing more.
I think I know my own heart and you're as bad as he is, and for the record, you're not the same person. You gave me attention and made me feel wanted, he gave me love and made me feel safe. I wanted a family with him, a house, a dog, that's the kind of man I am.
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Date: 2012-02-16 10:01 am (UTC)You’ve always wanted attention; Al. Fia making you feel all those sappy feelings is just another form of attention. You just messed it up because you wanted some how to make him different so you couldn’t think it was me you wanted.
*Pulls Al into his arms.* This is the kind of man you are. *Claims Al’s mouth in a needed kiss.*
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Date: 2012-02-16 10:03 am (UTC)You're wrong about me, you don't know who I am any more. Stay away from me.
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Date: 2012-02-16 10:07 am (UTC)How am I supposed to know who you are if I have to stay away. I'm not leaving, baby. I wanted to be with you all this time and nothing is going to take me away from you. Not even Fia.
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Date: 2012-02-16 12:14 pm (UTC)You know what? [vanishes]